The Downfall

I can feel myself falling,

falling,

falling,

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I'm falling down

into the dark black hole

falling,

falling,

and I'm still falling

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feels like it's an endless hole

Supposing you have tried and failed again. You may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing that we call "Failure" is not falling down, but the staying down. --

Mary Pickford (Canadian born American Actress called America's Sweetheart during the silent-film era. 1893-1979)

Should I stay down and have a fresh start?? But if I do, I have to start planning what am I REALLY going to do?? Why is it SO HARD to make a bloody decision?? Because the decision you had decided will end up into consideration. Then you'll start to think twice about it and you'll end up back to square one!!

It's all about DECISION,DECISION and DECISION! Whether you make the right or wrong decision.

The passion that I used to have is long dead and gone.

Life is FUCKED up!!!

Top Students Cry Over PSLE

Despite the wee hours, decided to blog about the news that I just read online. About Kiddos crying or complaining to their Mummy about the Maths PSLE and was unexpected it to get harder and harder. Boo Hoo Hoo!!! Oh Come On get a LIFE! Don't blame MOE for setting the paper harder. TYPICAL Singapore parents!! You know why because for this year PSLE calculators can be used for paper 2. HAHA... You think what easy come and go ah? Your wish ah! It's like what you guys are just Primary Six!! Just move on to the next paper can? It's just one BLOODY paper. I ask them do Engineering Maths I paper in NTU, then maybe they can see who is more fucked up. We screwed up our paper, we never complain until come out in the news right. At most we complain and blamed the Foreigners for making our life so difficult that's all. I know alright there's a big difference between A+ and A. You guys had been studying hard for 2 months to go to your favorite school that you chose, I know how it feels like. The thing is you Kiddos got 2 MONTHS to study and WE Computer Engineering NTU students not even a 2 months just say plenty of time to rest plus all those never-ending lab assignments/projects equal to night less sleep, we will end up studying in the last 2 week/1 week before exams again equal to night less sleep. Not mentioning the depression/suicidal emotions we're having. You KIDDOS got what to handle? No lab assignments/projects/report to handle. So stop whining and complaining lah.

- School recess week starting tomorrow.. No break for me because I got lab works to do during those week..
- Gotta figure out my database thingy for Software Engineering.
- Too caught up with work work work, I almost forgot the coming week is recess week until my friend mentioned it last week. WTF!
-Panda-eyed for me.

My Saturday Life.

-Sorry for not updating my blog all this while because I am either lazy or can't be bothered to update or I got nothing interesting updates to share with you guys. I had been Tweeting a lot nowadays. Now I decided to update my blog after receiving a complaint from a good friend of mine.
- Went to NYP DECC Alumni Gathering 2009.
- In the evening, met up with Andersonian mates, we're breaking fast at Swensons in birthday celebration of all the August Babies.
-After that went to BayBeats at Esplanade with Sha's friends: Yasin,Iman,Din and Khai.
Had a great time and I supposedly to be back home early that night but the Rebellious Me decided to stay for StarBucks because it's like I was giving my support to one of the guys who wanted a girl's number at the counter. It's very interesting to see how the guys flirt and asking a girl's number you know that sort of stuff..
- So all of us were like relationship adviser like that giving him advice while he was being pressurized by all of us.
-In the end he REALLY got her number.
-Lastly had to go be back home because of my mum worrying about me not getting the last bus blah blah blah...
-Reached home at around one plus in the morning , got nagged from my mum.. Never slept for the next few hours doing a little bit of school work and to "sahur" for fasting on the next day.


- Will be uploading some photos once I bug those who have the photos in their hands.

Half-Blood Prince

Watched Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince(HPHBP) with my cousin Ayu. It's been a long time since we watched a movie. The movie is superb even though my cousin found the movie a little crap. Having religiously follow the book,I understand what's going on in the story and it is less confusing. I cried somewhere at the end of the movie. As I watched HPHBP,I tend to like Draco(Tom Fenton).It's not that I don't like Harry but Draco's dark character really turns me on baby ^_^. Suddenly I like some of the dark characters in the movie and I even like Professor Snape(Alan Rickman) hehe.It's just something about the potion master. Maybe I am gonna watch HPHBP again if my friend want to watch next week!

Who says Bad Boy are not dreamy?

Professor Severus Snape

We had lost another Legend.

The King of Pop is gone. No one can ever be like him. Michael Jackson will always be the King of Pop. He will be dearly missed and lots of Love from Singapore. Rest in peace MJ.

What A Day!

Today's my second day working as a Health Care Assistant. Making some friends and meeting interesting people... Just now at woodland checkpoint,I was stationed at the motorcycle lane doing the Temperature Screening of the motorcyclist. You know how tight the custom check at checkpoint sometimes... I pitied this mak cik. She and her son just went back from Larkin Market,Johor. She had bought some groceries. That afternoon was not her luck. There's one inspector with high rank lah, he went to check his son's bike and found out she had bought beef pizza in and it's not just one piece but TWO pieces. He confiscated them. When I saw that, in my heart "ALAMAK! Why this mak cik bought beef pizza??!" You can't even buy/bring processed food with beef/chicken in. Not only that she looked very tired and worried too. She told me her Baratu Barakah (traditional medical pills/jamu) also kena confiscated. Dah her son had to be brought in to the office. So I asked her to take my seat and have a seat. [There's a seat for us when we were doing our screening.] While waiting for her son, I chatted with Mak Cik. I advised her next time not to buy the pizza/Burger Ramly or any poultry products at Larkin Market because you can't bring them in to Singapore. Pity the poor mak cik.

At night, not so happening lah but I met Yin' Yin' from K-nite(she appeared in this Malay comedy show). How is she related with Jack Neo? Is she Jack Neo's cousin or what? Someone Please tell me.. Never mind then while I was doing my work she looked at me like I was a Freak of some kind. I know lah I am already wearing a mask, No need to look at me until like that right? Aiyo!